Navigating through my twenties has certainly been interesting. What a time!! I’m being very sarcastic if you haven’t noticed. I mean I think I’ve genuinely enjoyed my twenties and they aren’t over just yet but when I reflect on the good times and the bad, I definitely feel like I could’ve avoided some of the bad if I was able to have the advice I’m getting ready to share. I know what you all are probably thinking and trust me, I believe that too. You have to trust and enjoy your journey Kourtney. It makes you a better you. I know, I know, there’s always beauty in the struggle. I just know for a fact if I knew what I know now, so many things would’ve played out differently. But I’m okay with where I am and I love who it has allowed me to become. I’m so comfortable in my skin and I'm grateful for that because there were times when I wasn’t. So here it goes! If I could tell my younger self one important thing it would be......
To never ever, under any circumstances... ignore my intuition.
You know that feeling that you get in the pit of your stomach when something feels off or doesn’t feel right? Yeah that! When I look back on every single instance where I’ve felt that, I was shown shortly after why I felt that way. I’ve also decided against things because they didn’t feel right and each time it ended up being the right choice. So looking back I wonder why did I ignore my intuition sometimes and sometimes I didn’t? If I have to be real with myself, each time without a doubt, it was because I was trying to force something that wasn’t supposed to be. Trying to make things how I wanted them, and it folded every single time. Back then I couldn’t see that I was causing myself unnecessary hardship, difficulties, or hurt because I was trying to have too much control or force things all together. I also had a habit of dwelling on various failed situations. Looking back on that actually annoys the hell out me because I would never do that now. My attitude now is whatever is supposed to be, will be. DASSIT. I can’t believe some of the things I did wasting time and thoughts! Jesus be a therapist! My goodness! Haha!
Trusting my intuition and my gut feeling growing through my twenties has shown to never fail me. Would’ve been nice to realize it a little sooner but hey! I’m here to help others who are in their early twenties and trying to figure it all out. I want to make something very clear though. I think there’s a difference in your intuition and you just telling yourself something feels right or wrong. My definition of “intuition” would have to be what feels right when you take your heart and brain out of the equation. (Wtf do you have without those two things right? LOL) What I mean is when you feel at peace with something and you might not know exactly how to explain it but you feel it within. It’s definitely a feeling. At least it is for me.
I don’t think any of us were taught how to use this "inner sense" but we all know too well that gut feeling I'm talking about. So to my younger self I want to say, learn to trust your inner feelings and they will become stronger. Avoid going against your better judgement or talking yourself into things that don’t feel right. You’re so much more wiser than you think. You’re strong and sometimes you need to be uncomfortable to elevate and excel. Sometimes you need to leave the comfort of your mind and your heart and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you discover will be wonderful. Don’t be afraid.
I hope you all enjoyed this post and I encourage you to take a look back and figure out what you would share with your younger self. Thanks for reading!
Harmonious Kourt
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