When anxiety consumes you it's very hard to concentrate and find the motivation to do the things you know you have to do. I am in a doctoral program and I have many obligations to fulfill . Sometimes when I'm feeling anxious and tense I shut down and I don't want to do anything. My close friends always pick up on this and try to get me to talk about what I'm feeling. That's the type of behavior that makes me want to gain control of how I let situations affect me. I don't have time for any setbacks! Getting too attached to people and situations makes you forget about yourself and maybe even lose sight of yourself. You have to acquire your happiness from within and not rely on others for that. Happiness begins with you. Within myself I'll find freedom from stress and anxiety.
I'm realizing now that sometimes SHIT HAPPENS! Shit happens and it may be beyond anything that I can do so it's up to me to free myself of the stress and anxiety. It has happened! The change, the disappointment, and maybe even the failure but I don't have to be stuck there. Trust me it's easier for me to write that than it is for me to practice it, but I promised myself I would find real freedom within myself so I have to let things go. This is my biggest internal challenge but I owe a worry free life to myself and I plan to acquire it. Even though I'm up at 2:09am writing this in the most heartless hour, I still have a place in my heart for forgiveness and faith that things will get better!
Peace & Good Vibes,
Harmonious Kourt
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